SHE IS FINALLY HERE!!!

It has been over three weeks since Brielle Laurel brown entered our life, but I have felt like I needed to journal it from day one. For quite a while I have felt there is another little spirit that is suppose to be in our home. Essentially I felt like our family wasn't complete. I remember Laurie telling me a few time she thought there was another little boy up there for us.  My mother had also mentioned it a couple of times. I  have felt for sure that there was another little one. So on Easter I told Dave that we were pregnant. I can't believe how quickly the time came. I was sick at first I remember one day throwing up and Naomi was laying on the bathroom counter making some funny comment. I always tried to tell my kids that it was a good sick. Because my kids are such a blessing. But I for sure didn't feel very good. I slept a lot but made it through. My kids and Dave were very sensitive to my needs and took good care of me the whole time. I am blessed to have such a supportive family. Everyone was so excited they would have me look up what fruit would compare to the size of the baby, Brianna would measure my stomach and we were all just supper excited. I loved it the baby was all of ours she was going to be part of our family. I made sure to say our baby in my stomach not my baby. After our ultra sound we had a scare. They thought the baby was measuring to small so we had to go to a high risk doctor. It ended up that the machine was off, but not knowing what would happen to this little one terrified us and made us that more anxious to have her in our home. At the second ultra sound we had them print a picture of the baby and put it in the envelope. We brought the envelope home and to our surprise found out we were having a girl. I was in total shock. I have felt like there was another one out there but always assumed it was a boy, so a girl made me so emotional and excited. I would have been excited for a boy to.  The kids made us a special lunch the day of the second ultra sound because they knew we were worried about the baby. It was really neat of them. Ok on to November the 8th. I had been nesting a few week prior as every mom does but that day I was finishing up my nesting by putting up Christmas decorations.  Dave pulled everything out and the kids and I spent the evening putting it up. It was fun to do it with them. I was exhausted. We tucked the kids in bed and I looked around the living room and thought holy cow it looks like a bomb blew up. There was decorations everywhere. Dave and I decided to relax and watch a movie. I set for a few minutes and then Dave mentioned that it was Dan's birthday was the next day. I panicked and realized I had to kind of clean up because all of our kids are born on relatives birthdays. I knew she wasn't due until the 21st but I still cleaned up a little.  Exhausted I retired to bed early. Dave came in around midnight and I woke up when he got in bed. I was a little wet and thought huh that's weird did I pee the bed. I got cleaned up and thought I am leaking that is really weird. I called the hospital and they told me that is possible you can leak. So I continued cleaning up Christmas decorations and putting them up until about 2.30 in the morning. I didn't want to push it to much because once I hit a 4 I have a tendancy to go really fast.  I woke Dave up who must have still been asleep because he said what are we going to do with the kids. Why don't you drive yourself and if your are leaking call me. I laughed and assured him I was in labor and he needed to drive me to the hospital. He quickly woke up and was ready to go in minutes but seemed like seconds. We heaeded to the hospital and Doug came over to be with the kids. Sure enough it was the morning of the 9th Dan's birthday and the baby was coming today! Uncle Dan was a great person to share her birthday with. We checked in and they told me I could have an epidural right away. I decided to wait a while. I feel guilty if I feel no pain. We called mom and dad around 4. and around 7 I got an epidural . My blood pressure drops with the epidural so I passed out this time I remember thinking holy cow I feel horrible and then waking up with oxygen and feeling a little better. Dave's friend John was the anethsiologist and did an amazing job staying right with me and giving me medicine to keep my blood pressure up.  They kept checking me and I was not diolating past a 3. My placenta had torn and they were starting to get concerned. They decided to turn me on my stomach around 1 and about an hour later we were ready to push. The doctor had went back to his house to work on his lawn so I had to wait a few minutes. From the time he came in until she was out, was about 5 to 15 minutes. He said the cord is wrapped twice around her neck. Mother insticts kicked in and I was going to do anything to get her out fast. It was a miriacle that we didn't have to C-section and that she was ok. I have had 3 doctors ask if she was C-sectioned baby because her head is so round. I said no we just got her out fast. Truly though I had a blessing during these hours and I felt like heavenly father was watching over us and we brought this little girl into the world. Ok I am getting emotional. I thought a lot about Laurie and Dennis at this time, Laurie always wanted to come to a birth and I wondered if she finally got her wish. I hoped with all my heart that she was there watching the birth of her grand baby. My heart was tender as I knew that Brielle was with grandma and grandpa before she came to live with us. I imagined her bouncing on Dennis's leg or better on his stomach as he laid on his side in heaven. I know each of us had a guardian angels with us on earth. I felt automatic love for Brielle the second she was born and I couldn't wait to hold her. When you have a child you want to share them with all of your loved ones, but you also selfishly want to hold them all to yourself. I was grateful to have Dave in the room by my side as we shared in this sacred experience together. I didn't hear Dave say this but my mom had just arrived at the hospital and she said she heard Dave say SWEET when she was born. I love the feeling you get the second you deliver a baby and you look at your husband. The feeling is unreal and so wonderful . I loved looking in his eyes for those few seconds no words have to be said. But so much is felt. I have gratitude to have another child with him. He is an incredible father and with serve Brielle well in this life. He loves his kids 100%, he is a worthy priesthood holder and takes good care of them and me. So to look him in the eyes knowing what life can be based on who he is. Is always so exciting.  On to the moment I saw the baby I may be biased but she was bueatiful I layed her right on me and shed a few tears. It was a picture perfect moment. Except that the doctor kept talking about his yard. She stayed awake for about 5 hours. It was so fun to hold her. I held her then Dave, then back to me then mom and dad came, then our kids with aunt Farrah.  Naomi was scared I was hurt and didn't know how to help me. Kyle rubbed my feet, then Naomi and Kameron took turns. It was so fun to share her together. She was finally here all 6 lbs 9 ounces of her. With perfect petite little features. This journal entry will need to be continued because I need to go take care of baby now!